☮.♥.✮ ☀..✈

A few of you know that for the past three months, I've been stuck in this crossroad.

Major decisions had to be made. Big steps had to be done and as days go on, I have slowly come to accept that there will be people who’ll be hurt… People I choose not to hurt, but unfortunately, it's beyond my control.

When I close my eyes, when I look inside, I look for the hole in my thinking.
It's not the hole of what's missing. It's the whole of the vision. It's the view to what I'm feeling.

I have to wait. Relax, though it's probably the most difficult thing to do right now. Reflect. Look. Listen. Look again. Then I see all of the things inside my eyelids begin moving.

They move apart. They separate. A tiny hole they make.
I look through that hole and see a whole vision.
It's the way to my feelings – my future.

Today's been a tough one. Well, tomorrow might be worse or better. So there is this pretty hole in my life right now that makes me realize the meanings of so many things. Yup, a hole – and it's not empty, it's full. Just think about it. Without a hole, a house would be unlivable, a cup useless. Can't wander in the darkness inside. Trying to deal with this hole carefully because, I am just certain that it will help me in many ways.